Wednesday, April 15, 2020

Coronavirus (COVID-19) - Empty World






Hello, my name is Alwyn Ash, and Today I Am Facing An Unknown Future


This is an article I never thought would be written in my lifetime. It's a reflection of life in 2020. It's been reported that the first official case of COVID-19 can be traced to 17 November 2019, though the outbreak was officially announced in December 2019, known to have originated in Wuhan, Hubei, China. Most astonishingly of all is that the Chinese government allegedly tried to cover up the outbreak in the early days. Over four months later and the whole planet is in lockdown. In March 2020, the virus was recognised as a pandemic by the World Health Organization (WHO).

It's the most frightening time in my life so far. Though we've been told to remain indoors and isolate from this threat, it's become necessary to step outside and visit the local grocery store, or collect prescribed medication from a pharmacy. None of us were prepared for the situation we now find ourselves in. Which is weird, considering that novelists and movie directors have been warning us of such a scenario for decades. I'm immediately reminded of The Omega Man (1971), based on Richard Matheson's 1954 novel I Am Legend. Of course, there is a huge difference right now between our world and the one Charlton Heston's character, Neville, lives in. But there is no denying that we've all taken so much for granted.

Call me naive, but I always believed world governments could handle something as significant as a pandemic, that there would be in place specialised teams with enough equipment and knowledge to fight such a problem. Perhaps, at some undisclosed location, there existed a facility that held isolation rooms, a laboratory, whole areas where those infected could be transferred to under strict quarantine. Yes, thousands if need be! Travel between countries would be banned and Martial Law would come into operation, military aiding police in implementing a lockdown throughout the country and distributing supplies to civilians to prevent stock-piling. Alas, we're a long way from being organised. I would rather be in safe hands and guided by leaders that had planned for such an outcome than where we are at present, with uncertainty regarding food shortages and social distancing. One voice, one plan.

Okay, the idea of Martial Law isn't everyone's cup of tea, I completely understand. And that's perfectly fine. We all have opinions on the best ways of handling any given situation.

The reality: a British government that has reacted slowly; a society that panic-buys, leaving supermarket shelves bare; individuals who refuse to self-isolate either because they fail to realise the full potential of this pandemic or they just don't care, believing they're too young and healthy to die from it; and people who are unable to stay in their homes as directed at no fault of their own. The homeless are an issue, too, the vulnerable who have no where safe to quarantine.

Everything is chaos.

While a minority of the rich are complaining about being locked in their mansions, key workers at ground level are risking their lives by being on the front line to help others: grocery staff, medics, delivery drivers, care assistants, and many more who cannot just switch off and stay at home.


History Today - A Great Plague Is Upon Us


I was always fascinated and saddened by The Great Plague, which lasted for the period of 1665 to 1666. The bubonic plague killed without discrimination. First reports were of isolated cases in London, first appearing in the dock areas of the city, and in St. Giles parish. These early deaths were not reported as plague related and so no official quarantine measures were set in place. Though weekly deaths had increased in their hundreds, only a handful were recorded as plague. Finally household quarantine was ordered, with suspected plague victims to be shut up in their homes. Astonishingly, people in St. Giles reacted violently to this and a riot ensued, resulting in the first house that had been sealed to be opened up and its inhabitants released. This led to the construction of isolation hospitals known as pest-houses. Over the months there were more cases, and deaths.

The plague was rampant in London by July 1665. Those rich enough fled, including sovereign of that time: King Charles II of England! But for most it was a terrifying time, unable to escape infection and the infected. Businesses shut down. Though some of the poor did manage to leave the city, on evidence of good health by producing a certificate signed by the Lord Mayor, it was not easy - many were turned back by outer villages and some died of thirst or hunger during the hot Summer. By this point it was believed that just over 2,000 residents had died from plague in London. Pits were dug for those that had died. Dead-carts were driven through streets carrying piles of bodies. At one point there were so many victims and so few cart drivers that corpses were stacking up in their homes.

Feels strange typing this as I look out of my own window to see an empty street. Today businesses are mostly closed also, only those classed as essential still open their doors, though the number of customers at any one time has been restricted. Like those stuck in London in 1665, my family is unable to go someplace safe - we have no access to a country retreat. I'm forced to walk those streets for whatever food supplies I can find in local stores, and though I've ordered my mother's prescription online a text has arrived stating that I now have to walk to another store on the other side of town to collect them.

So I must stay safe, keep a distance from others and thoroughly wash my hands upon returning home. I'm a carer, my mother is of pension age and has recently been in hospital. She is one of those vulnerable from Coronavirus. Yes, I'm scared for her safety. What if I become sick, and am unable to look after her?


History Will Judge Us


Future historians will have unlimited access to this century, they'll write essays and present documentaries, schools will learn of 2020 and gravestones will carry the scars. I'm part of this "history", and I just don't know where it will lead. I'd rather die of old age in another 40 years time than be a statistic for COVID-19.

I feel the weight of responsibility for keeping both myself and my mother safe. Because right now I'm the only person that could potentially give it to her. She can't go out. Not enough has been done to protect our daily lives, and there is just not enough support networks in place. Not everyone is observing social distancing and maintaining the 2 metre distance advised by government, either. My local Tesco Express store isn't limiting the number of customers at any one time, so we're still passing each other too close and trying to get past staff who are stocking shelves. No, I don't blame the staff at all, they are heroes and life wouldn't function without them. They clearly are in need of better management and organisation. It doesn't help that companies are doing their own thing and that there isn't a single set of regulations governed by law. Yes, this pandemic is unprecedented, but we've always known it to be on the cards.


Empty world


In 1977, an apocalyptic novel written by John Christopher was published. Empty World tells the story of a disease called the Calcutta Plague, which accelerates the ageing process in all human beings. It is told from the point of view of 15-year-old Neil Miller, who at one stage contracts the virus but ultimately survives after a fever. Eventually those of all ages can succumb to the plague, leaving handfuls of survivors. I first read it over ten years ago and in recent years have bought a fresh copy from Aladdin Books, an imprint owned by Simon & Schuster.

Ironically, there have been reports of a surge in apocalyptic movies being streamed during this modern-day pandemic. Maybe it's a form of self-counselling, to remind some of us that no matter what the world throws at us, it could be a lot worse? Or they're looking to these films for inspiration, as a survival guide? Personally, I have been studying the history of television shows such as 1970s British series Survivors, which originally aired from 1975-77. It tells the story of a plague called "The Death" that goes global, decimating the population. The BBC (British Broadcasting Corporation) ran a version in 2008, lasting for two seasons. And in 2014, Big Finish (a company that specialises in audio drama) began releasing a number of boxsets featuring new stories set in the world of Survivors.

I am yet to hear any of these or watch either television series. Whether now is the right time, I'm not so sure.

The 2020 pandemic is destroying lives, robbing families of loved ones, and crippling businesses and the world economy. There is deep uncertainty. It's heartbreaking to witness these events. What will come in the next six months is anyone's guess, because history is still being written. But what I do know is that life must change as a result of this, attitudes towards others need to be reevaluated. Everyone is playing their part. Without artists there would be no books, artwork, movies or audiobooks to keep us entertained during the isolation period; without key workers there would be no access to mail, food, money or other vital products; and where would this world be without doctors, nurses and care workers? there are others, too, without whom our present predicament would be much darker and far scarier.

I have learned something about myself: there is an inner strength. I'm far from perfect, and I have had terrible days of feeling desperation and crying, but the strength helps to pick me back up and fight again, determined to protect loved ones from harm. I am learning to appreciate what really matters.

Everything else is just a luxury.



Thursday, March 19, 2020

Oh My Word! Fandoom - How To Help Pollute A Franchise With Toxicity






Opinions Are Like Arseholes...


"It's not my show anymore." "They've bastardized my favourite movie series." "Political correctness gone crazy." "It rubs people the wrong way." "The thing is an obvious gimmick." "The 13th doctor being a female just ruined doctor who."

Everyone has an opinion. Back in the good old days of cult magazines (some of which are still ongoing) you'd find them in the letters section, but unless you purchased said publications then they'd be easily overlooked. Nowadays, thanks to social media, it's EVERYWHERE! You can't log on and access a Facebook page without them being present. And "Friends" regularly post their reactions, both good and bad, to shows and movies. What is becoming apparent today, however, is the lack of respect fans hold for fellow fans.

I'm totally with someone who doesn't like something because we can't ALL enjoy everything that's written for stage and screen, but it's the possessiveness and self-entitled attitude of fans that help to ruin a good franchise. There are personal attacks at anyone who clearly and honestly enjoys the latest incarnation of the Doctor (in this case Jodie Whittaker) or have rallied behind Daisy Ridley in the latest Star Wars trilogy instalment. Now there are misogynistic types behind SOME of the attacks, people who just will not accept a female in a lead role. But it also goes much deeper, because there are women who do not support certain changes "for changes sake" or are tired of a "political correctness agenda" from filmmakers and writers. Again, I'm with them, not because I agree but simply because I respect their opinion.

This is what is largely missing from social networking, the ability to agree to disagree, to accept that an opposite opinion of yours is not a personal attack and therefore does not warrant an actual personal attack. For example, I once commented on a Star Wars post that I enjoyed The Last Jedi - someone called me a "C#@t". I deleted my comment and refused to write anything on a page ever again. Did I give in to a "troll"? Well, yes. But in all fairness I just didn't expect such a response. Naive? Mhm. That said, it's becoming harder to visit ANY official franchise page these days and engage in discussion, as the insults and aggression are actually growing. The thing that makes me laugh? Seeing someone comment that they love Whittaker as the Doctor and it receives a number of angry face emojis. I mean, why? They've not said anything mean, they've not killed anyone or stole someone's pocket money. They've simply stated that they enjoy something that is harmless fun. It's a television show about a traveller in time and space. It's almost terrifying to click on the replies to that comment, knowing they'll be the usual cruel jibes.



Lessons In Why To Be Constructive


There's a fantastic article called Ghostbusters: Answer The Call – a celebration of its ongoing legacy in which its author Simon Brew points out the positives of Paul Feig's 2016 movie. This is something that I hold with all franchises, there will always be new fans from a current incarnation whether it be Star Trek or Doctor Who. I've seen online photos of children dressed as the 13th Doctor or a girl Ghostbuster, and it's so refreshing. Honestly, I was a child when first visiting the Doctor or a Ghostbuster, and it was a boyhood dream to want to be Indiana Jones or Luke Skywalker. A show might change but my cherished memories remain intact.






All childhood Memories Are Safe


"They've ruined my childhood" is a comment I see often. My reaction? Grow up (as in, be reasonable with your perspective, you're an adult for goodness sake)! At 45 years of age I'm still finding fascination from movies and TV shows, I totally own my childhood and am still developing my adulthood. I've grown up but at the same time still enjoy being a child sometimes. When Star wars: The Force Awakens hit theatres I was excited and giddy, and have now begun collecting Hasbro's Black Series six inch Star Wars figures with the face printing technology. I used to own Kenner figures back in the 1980s, and still have the Yoda with his brown snake somewhere.

If you are someone who have a real passion for Star Wars' original trilogy, enjoy "Classic" Doctor Who, or prefer Star Trek: The Next Generation over Star Trek: Discovery, the good news is that they have never been deleted, you can rewatch til your heart's content. Okay, I see the irony in mentioning George Lucas' original trilogy as not being deleted - he's tinkered with those movies so much that at present we don't own on blur-ray the trilogy as it was first shown - but you get the idea: we can still revisit Luke's adventures in some form. There ARE Doctor Who episodes missing from the 1960s, but we're still rich with plenty of them on DVD between 1963-89. And old Star Trek is EVERYWHERE.


Mutual Respect


I understand the passion that fans hold for something, they've invested so much time and money into a franchise that they feel some kind of ownership. In truth, we don't and have never owned any franchise, it's always in the hands of a current management team who will take it in any direction they see fit while they have the keys. And so, we either love or hate those changes. Fundamentally, we MUST learn to appreciate that there are fans who WILL adore those changes, embrace and go with them. Criticising their support or directing hateful comments is never acceptable.

An example: I was never fully on board with Matt Smith's Doctor but accepted that he was loved by millions, and so refrained from being negative for negative's sake. I watched some episodes from time to time, and kept up to date with the show's developments, but rarely felt passionate about it all. The same applied to Peter Capaldi's tenure, though with him I was more disappointed by the writing than the actor's casting. I never once visited a fan page just to say how much I hated the show - I mean, what's the point? Instead I embraced Classic Doctor Who more and focused on other shows such as Falling Skies, Terra Nova, The Walking Dead and Stranger Things.

Upon hearing that a woman had been cast as the Doctor, I sighed. It's not what I wanted. But I waited, looked up Jodie Whittaker online and liked her personality in interviews. I shrugged. Okay. I'm interested. Now I'm a fan. I remained respectful and patient, instead of throwing a tantrum and criticising anyone who championed her from Day One.

So, I'm a fan who felt MY show had not gone in a direction I liked (Smith-Capaldi) but didn't feel privileged enough to ruin it for others. I took a sidestep. It's true to say that friends have fallen out over these kind of things, whether in real life or online. But why? It's important to think about what we truly value. A fanbase should be a fun place to visit, share opinions and have a laugh - instead, they've become very serious, polluted and damaging.






Don't Blame Others For Your Inability To Be Civil


It's not the writers of our favourite show or movies that have done this, it's the fans! Regardless of "sides" (of which there shouldn't be any), there is a toxicity that needs to be removed. It's not life or death, nor should someone be regarded as an "enemy". Desist from using an angry face (😠 lol) on a post just because a fellow fan enjoys watching a current incarnation of something you dislike.

They've not boiled your pet rabbit!


Friday, September 6, 2019

Oh My Word! 007's Are Forever




Lashana Lynch as Nomi in the new James Bond film No Time To Die



"In this day and age why are we even obsessed with colour or gender?"

Before anyone gets upset over a female 007, let me start by asking you to open your mind and be rational. After reports that British actress Lashana Lynch is to play 007 in the next James Bond movie, the internet exploded. With headlines such as "It would be the first time a white man will not play 007 in the spy movie series’ 57-year run" and "Meet the new Bond", it really is getting ridiculous. So, let's clarify things a little...

Lynch is portraying a 007 agent called Nomi in the next movie, but she is NOT James Bond. Still confused? Then please research a little and read up on 00 agents, you'll enjoy the experience. But to give you some insight into it all, here's an interesting piece from Wikipedia: "In Ian Fleming's James Bond novels and the derived films, the 00 Section of MI6 is considered the secret service's elite. A 00 is a field agent that holds a licence to kill in the field, at his or her discretion, to complete any mission". At "HIS or HER" discretion, so we know that a 00 agent can be a man or woman.

OK, so what about 007, hasn't there ever only been one agent to hold that particular licence to kill? Actually, no. In Fleming's stories, Bond is the only 007; to date that has also included the official Eon film franchise. Take a look at 2018's Forever and a Day, however, and you'll find that James Bond isn't the first: "The sea keeps its secrets. But not this time. One body. Three bullets. 007 floats in the waters of Marseille, killed by an unknown hand. It's time for a new agent to step up. Time for a new weapon in the war against organised crime. It's time for James Bond to earn his licence to kill. This is the story of the birth of a legend, in the brutal underworld of the French Riviera".

So, someone else had been 007 before Bond. They had been murdered. As a result, a new agent is assigned as 007. This could have been anyone, male or female. As it happens, the person chosen is Bond.

We know that tabloids have a habit of misquoting or making things up completely, but when you see the Mail Online printing such nonsense as "First ever black James Bond girl who played Thumper in Diamonds Are Forever blasts casting of actress Lashana Lynch who is taking over as 007 - saying iconic code name was meant for a man", it is easy to feel disappointed. So I roll my eyes, sigh, and write my own thoughts. It isn't controversial to cast a black woman as 007, as any agent can be assigned as any 00 if the previous agent has either died or retired from Service.

In this day and age why are we even obsessed with colour or gender? A talented actor/actress has been cast in a film about the secret service. Yes, it's a Bond movie so James Bond must be male but not necessarily white. That does not mean the remaining cast cannot take on other important roles within the infrastructure of the plot.

And it does seem possible that at the start of the new movie, now given the title "No Time to Die", James Bond has indeed retired from the Secret Service. It looks like something will bring him out of retirement, or perhaps he'll work with the new 007 without an official licence to kill of his own. It has happened before, remember when Timothy Dalton's Bond became a fugitive? His licence to kill had been revoked so, in affect, he was no longer 007 until it was reinstalled by his superiors.

It has also been announced that CIA agent Felix Leiter will be played by Jeffrey Wright. In previous instalments the character has been portrayed by numerous actors including David Hedison, whose storyline in Licence To Kill is unforgettable.

Bond 25 is being directed by Cary Fukunaga and will star Daniel Craig as James Bond. As for 007, well, I'm sure the licence to kill is in safe hands. 007's are forever, after all.



Saturday, October 6, 2018

Oh My Word! Raising A Glass To Peter Capaldi





Alwyn Ash was going to write a lengthy article celebrating the work of Twelfth Doctor Peter Capaldi. Instead, some lovely fellow Doctor Who fans shared their thoughts on the man, his time on the show, and what it meant for them to watch this fantastic Doctor in action...


"With Capaldi as an actor, we have arguably the best, most diverse actor to have played the role"

Steve Beaufoy: Peter is a fine character actor, and completely sold me on his take on the Doctor. It was my brother who first suggested I watch 'In The Thick Of It', and since then, after having watched the first series of 'The Musketeers', then his three series of Doctor Who - I am a fan. I didn't believe that anyone else could endear me to the Doctor since Tom Baker, but Peter did, 100%, and it was obvious that he loved the show. Yes, some scripts were poor, but isn't that the way with every other actor who has taken on the role? Would be honoured to meet the Gent.


Adrian Sherlock: He had the X factor which you cannot always find in every actor to play the Doctor, that old man of the Universe thing which cannot be bought or faked. He could be off the wall and funny, he could be vulnerable and sympathetic, he could speak with great passion and conviction. The scripts in his era sometimes felt like they were missing the mark, but when he had the chance to shine, he always impressed. I feel a smile come to my face when I see him and you can't fake that or buy it with money either.


Brendan Lynch: As The Doctor, for me Capaldi comes 2nd only to Troughton. Throughout his 3 seasons in the role we saw different facets of his character, from the moody, somewhat distant, traveller akin to Hartnell, to the softer, more funny uncle in Series 10. Capaldi played each aspect with vigour and love for the character and the show. As others mention, when his Doctor walked into a room, like Pertwee, he owned that room and the attention was on him. He was unpredictable in his actions, making the character harder to guess their response to new situations that that incarnation experienced. When the rage of 12 set in, we saw the ferociousness that Capaldi plays so well.

With Capaldi as an actor, we have arguably the best, most diverse actor to have played the role. His most famous role being a role in comedy series The Thick of It, he showed not only his skill with the humorous moments, but also the dramatic moments. The rage mentioned before, such as in Face The Raven, to the hopelessness in Heaven Sent and The Doctor Falls when he pleads for the Master's help. We had an actor who put his all into every scene, and made an era marred by a mixed bag of scripts, so memorable for me.

With Capaldi as a person, I cannot fault him. The way he has been with fans from the off has been sensational. From comforting a young fan upset that Matt Smith had left by showing him a photo of himself and Matt together, and explaining to the child that he asked Matt's permission to become The Doctor and he said it was ok. And followed by saying I hope that it'll be ok with this fan to take over.

Then there's the in-character message to the autistic boy who was struggling after the loss of a grandparent, surprising young fans at The Doctor Who Experience, and writing a letter to 2 young fans (again in character) upset about him leaving the show.

I was lucky enough to meet him at LFCC this year, and he chucked himself into the photoshoots, giving everyone a memorable photo with him, and when it came to the signing, he gave every fan the time to chat with him. Me personally, I spent 5 minutes chatting to him about The Thick of It and Capaldi's new project with Armando Iannucci.

Overall, Capaldi has shown both on and off screen just how much he loves and cares about the show, the fans and the legacy he and the show leaves. If there is any actor I can completely see geeking out at the sign of another Doctor Who actor, it's Peter Capaldi. We were so lucky to have him be a part of our show.


Andy Price: Capaldi was a fantastic Doctor. Like Pertwee before he brought a sense of gravitas as well as humour after the more clown like performance of Matt Smith (aka Pertwee and Troughton). He was let down by poor scripts and Moffat's clinging on to the character of Clara long after her story was done. To the point that at times is was more about Clara and her companion the Doctor.


Barbara Schafetz Viohl Orapello: He is a brilliant actor and was wonderful as The Doctor. Loved the fact that he is also a big fan of the show and I believe that showed through.


Final Thoughts

Alwyn Ash: On 24th Sept 2018 BBC's Entertainment and Arts Reporter Ian Youngs commented on his post 'How will the first female Doctor shake things up?' that Jodie Whittaker's first episode "will be a significant moment in British telly". A nice feel to the article. The writer, however, then added, "And what a great way to refresh a franchise, especially after four years of Peter Capaldi, who certainly wasn’t universally loved". Well, you can imagine the uproar from Doctor Who fans as responses became evident on social networking and online media. In short: 'The Universe Loves Peter Capaldi'. Mr Youngs' piece was regarded as "rubbish" and "disrespectful" to the actor who had portrayed the role of the Doctor with such passion.

Though short-changed regarding some scripts, there is no doubting the strength of Peter's Doctor. I recently watched 'The Witch's Familiar' (and 'The Magician's Apprentice' that preceded it) and loved the Doctor's performance as he stole Davros' chair only to confront a room full of Daleks. It's that sole determination, confidence and spirit that Peter brought to each scene, a power that only a great actor can achieve. Perhaps he wasn't "universally loved", but then, who is? No actor is universally loved, no rock star or artist either. Everyone has their fans and doubters, critics and haters. It's simply how things are.

I cannot fault Peter at all, he gave us the best of everything. I can fault the production team, writers and showrunner, on occasions. But never the actor. He is the Doctor. He is fantastic. We owe him such a great debt for enriching our lives with a wonderful performance. How best to bring this article to a close? Simple. Prior to the Twelfth Doctor's regeneration in 2017's 'Twice Upon a Time'...

"Oh, there it is, silly old universe. The more I save it, the more it needs saving. It's a treadmill. Yes, yes, I know, they'll get it all wrong without me. Well, I suppose one more lifetime won't kill anyone. Well, except me. You wait a moment, Doctor! Let's get it right. I've got a few things to say to you. Basic stuff first: never be cruel, never be cowardly, and never, ever eat pears! Remember, hate is always foolish, and love is always wise. Always try to be nice, but never fail to be kind. Oh, and you mustn't tell anyone your name. No one would understand it anyway… except… except children. Children can hear it, sometimes, if their hearts are in the right place, and the stars are too, children can hear your name. But nobody else. Nobody else, ever. Laugh hard. Run fast. Be kind. Doctor... I let you go."



Wednesday, September 19, 2018

Oh My Word! Jodie Whittaker, the Doctor; Genesis Who; Sydney Newman, and Regeneration






Oh my word!

I'll admit, my first reaction to the announcement of a female Doctor was simply "good grief!" It felt like a joke, one big silly prank designed to shake the fanbase until the name of the true Doctor was revealed.

The news, which I first heard through a friend on a social networking app, was broken on Sunday 16th July 2017 following the Men’s Wimbledon Final in the UK. Immediately perusing the Web, I noticed mixed responses from fans. Many were jubilant, others appalled by the decision to cast Jodie Whittaker as the Thirteenth Doctor. Some comments were downright nasty. And then there was a press release in which the actor herself said, "I’m beyond excited to begin this epic journey with Chris [Chibnall] and with every Whovian on this planet. It’s more than an honour to play the Doctor. It means remembering everyone I used to be, while stepping forward to embrace everything the Doctor stands for: hope. I can’t wait".

The hashtag #NotMyDoctor had begun circulating on Twitter and Instagram; the BBC even received complaints from viewers. Eventually the British television corporation issued a statement saying, "The Doctor is an alien from the planet Gallifrey, and it has been established in the show that Time Lords can switch gender". Amusingly #NotMyDoctor is still in use today, and it seems those people against Jodie's appointment wish nothing good for the show - actually hoping it fails so they can feel smug about it all.

Though much positivity and praise for the actor was being generated, I still wasn't convinced, and blamed previous showrunner Steven Moffat for Hell Bent (2015) and the on-screen regeneration of the General: the Time Lord had been shot by the Twelfth Doctor (Peter Capaldi) and, as a consequence, regenerated from male to female. Having been played by English actor Ken Bones for the tenth incarnation of the character, the General (also called Kenossium) was replaced by T'Nia Miller and the life of the eleventh persona began.

And, of course, who can forget Missy, a female incarnation of the Master portrayed by Michelle Gomez? I had persuaded myself that Moffat had ruined the show by introducing such a dreadful concept!

Then I had time to think about it and digest what the change would mean for both myself and the show that I have loved since a young age. Yes, I'm one of those middle-aged men from the classic era - Peter Davison was my Doctor. These past many years - since 2010 - I have had the privilege of chatting with various blog authors of Doctor Who fansites, I adopted an existing blog myself in those early years: Nebula One News. There was no shortage of female fans, and interest in the show had grown enormously as each new Doctor arrived.

Sadly, my own enthusiasm for Doctor Who waned a little and the blog closed. A new site launched in 2012, Regent Times, though its success was short-lived. It seemed that my love of blogging was over.


"I feel like I’ve been handed this amazing world..."

Jump to 2018 and, oh wow, what on Earth is happening? I'm full of ideas and enthusiasm again! I'm actually writing, designing web pages and feeling good about this. I could say that I've reached a moment in my life when everything is coming together. I wish. What has awoken, however, is all thanks to Jodie Whittaker, the Thirteenth Doctor. Though there has been a slow trickle of promotional pictures and trailers for Series 11, I've been awestruck by Whittaker's public appearances and passion: this is someone who wants nothing but the best for both the show and its devoted legion of fans!

I've read Jodie's various online interviews where she's said, "I feel like I’ve been handed this amazing world and they’ve let me be like a kid in a toy shop and go off with it..." and "I’m playing a Time Lord who’s essentially an alien and inhabits different bodies and this one is female (Marie Claire).

I've learned to embrace changes in Doctor Who since the 1980s, as it is the one constant along our journey with the show. The Doctor has been a role model for many, whatever the incarnation, and will continue to play that most important of parts.

As Jodie also shared in the interview, "I hope that as I could be your next-door neighbour – I’m not physically someone who could do extraordinary things – I won’t seem like an unattainable hero to kids. This is someone who loves science, who’s hopeful and who doesn’t look a particular way".


Didn't originally make the grade...

In a letter dated 6th October 1986 and addressed to then BBC Controller Michael Grade, Doctor Who co-creator Sydney Newman had made several suggestions as to how the series could proceed following its then turbulent period facing a possible axe and falling viewing figures. Actor Colin Baker had currently been associated with the role. The Canadian film and television producer was adamant that "The copyright in any ideas expressed will be mine. Should you accept these ideas the fee I would accept would be in the form of my being taken on and paid to be its Executive Producer or similar, to make sure the concept is properly executed".

It was his opinion regarding "The Characters" which is interesting, "(4) At a later stage, Dr Who would be metamorphosed into a woman. This requires some considerable thought - mainly because I want to avoid a flashy Hollywood 'Wonder Woman' because this kind of hero(ine) has no flaws - and a character with no flaws is a bore. Given more time than I have now, I can create such a character".

It has also been reported that actor Tom Baker, who played the role of the Time Lord from 1974-81, had said at a press conference in 1980, "I certainly wish my successor luck, whoever he or she might be". From what I can tell both Baker and then showrunner John Nathan-Turner had devised the comment as a piece of mischief, to keep the actual identity of Baker's replacement a compete surprise.

It didn't seem like an impossibility then, and it doesn't now. I've just looked up Regeneration and read, "the process by which Time Lords and others renewed themselves, causing a complete physical and often psychological change". And then there is, "Regeneration released massive amounts of a hormone called lindos in moments of extreme trauma, and it was this hormone which triggered regeneration... During regeneration, a Time Lord experiences a surge of pure regenerative energy, as their entire system was rewritten and their universe moulded into a new shape, with their very biodata being rewritten in the fabric of space-time".

It certainly isn't unfathomable to consider that during this violent and unstable process a being's entire gender could be altered.


Final thoughts

As we approach Sunday 7th October 2018, and the debut of The Woman Who Fell to Earth, I am fully embracing what is to come from Jodie Whittaker. As current showrunner Chris Chibnall says, "New Doctor, new home! Jodie Whittaker’s Doctor is about to burst into Sunday nights - and make the end of the weekend so much more exciting. Get everybody’s homework done, sort out your Monday clothes, then grab some special Sunday night popcorn, and settle down with all of the family for Sunday night adventures across space and time. (Also, move the sofa away from the wall so parents can hide behind it during the scary bits). The Thirteenth Doctor is falling from the sky and it’s going to be a blast."

My childhood used to be homework done and school uniform being ironed as I sat on the sofa to watch Battlestar Galactica, my last weekend treat before school. Now it's the Doctor - who could ask for a better treat than that?


Saturday, July 7, 2012

Living With Depression - Not Just The Sufferer



Part of the Cestrian Dreams Project



"My own experience of this has affected someone I care about deeply"
You must want to recover, or at least learn to live with depression, for yourself most of all. But you owe it to those who love you to at least try, never give up.

I guess it is so easy to fall, to embrace the darkness when we are depressed; there is no way out, no solution. No answer. And so we either withdraw further still or hit out. We think only of ourselves. After all, what does anyone else know? They don't have to live with depression. Albeit family, partners or close friends, they simply don't understand, so why should we think about their feelings? And so we spend what feels like an eternity alone, inside our own little space, ignoring the world around us, or trying to ignore. Perhaps we will see a glimmer of light, a moment to be thankful. However, even then, there is that darkness, swallowing us into oblivion once more. The cycle continues...

In February 2012 I wrote Depression - from the heart, an honest and painful article reflecting on my personal experiences with a mental illness that is far more common than you might realise. However, this time I will solely focus on the other side of depression - those who love you, and care for you. If you are lucky enough to have someone in your life who is there to embrace and comfort your heart, there is no doubt that you are one of the lucky few.

So does that solve everything? No, absolutely not. And there are times when you will take this person, or persons, for granted. You will not hold on to them as tight as you should, instead seeking refuge in tears and self-pity. Self-harm perhaps too, anything to cope with mental illness in your own way, and on your own terms?

And though it can be seen as a selfish act, we never truly mean to hurt those who love us. Because we love them, and will often tell them so. On reflection, during the clearest of moments, you will realise just how much pain and worry you have put them through, whether it be intentional or not! But the dark clouds overhead blot out the Sun and, once more, we engage with the inevitable.

My own experience of this has affected someone I care about deeply; she has given such warmth and love, never asking for anything in return. She is my guiding light in a world of mist, confusion and pain. I am thankful. And though I tell her often how special she is to me, it doesn't stop a sense of guilt, the feeling that she would be better off without this burden. But she loves me, and the burden is not as deep as I fear. My heart is safe...

Even still, my decisions sometimes causes further worry and pain. Ignoring my medication, for a start, was not one of my triumphs, choosing to live without Citalopram for a period believing I would finally be better off without it. Instead, I grew worse, clinging on desperately to life as insanity lured me into its shadowy lair.

Struggling and scared, I confided in the one person my heart has embraced, finally persuaded to accept that I need medication - it is not a matter of choice!

There is also a question of the correct medication and dosage. I am yet to find the perfect balance but, with support, I am determined to make it work. Again, no other choice - it is either that or a painful and desperate battle that will rapidly overcome my soul and further decay the hope that is still within reach...

I will say this: you must want to recover, or at least learn to live with depression, for yourself most of all. But you owe it to those who love you to at least try, never give up. As much as they support you, there is only a limit to what they can cope with - a generous heart will hold you so close, keep you safe. But if you refuse to embrace them back and seek refuge in their warmth when needed... Summon the courage to fight.

I know it is not easy. But that is precisely why you should desire the will to overcome depression - you are not alone!

Though I am no counsellor, I can understand some of what you are going through. We are all different, and learn to cope with mental illness in similar and various ways. There is so much that clouds our judgement, exiling us to a place that is neither safe or pain-free. No answers can be sought here.

Look to those who love you for guidance.





Article author: Alwyn Ash




Sunday, February 26, 2012

Depression - From The Heart...



Part of the Cestrian Dreams Project

"Beautifully written & staggeringly honest" - Neil Gardner



"Depression can make you feel isolated
and lonely"

It seems like a never-ending story. When you are affected so badly, living with so much confusion and anger, it feels as if nothing will ever change. You see the bad patches, taste the negativity of those moments, blinded by clouded judgement. It may even be that you are facing this upset alone, unable to share your fears with a close friend or family member. And even then, do they really understand? Frustration, despair, these all leak in to your world, drowning you further. There is no way out, or perhaps there is - one way to escape the torment...

And yes, I have been there. Still am, battling day to day with depression. Some may say "You'll get over it" or "There's always tomorrow", but isn't that helpful, eh? Tomorrow could be the day you decide to end it all. And then what?

My personal struggle with this mental illness has been hell, I don't mind saying. Even now, it raises its ugly head often, tearing what should have been a perfect day in half. One minute you feel fine, coping brilliantly, then there is a shadow, a spark, and everything changes. It really does. You go from being content to feeling miserable, paranoid, and hurt, inside.

Sometimes it doesn't take much to cause this rapid change. People never seem to understand that. "What happened?" they'll ask. Yet, sadly, there is not always an answer to that question. Your head swims, your thoughts unable to focus, there is tension, a vice-like pain that wants nothing more than to cast you into oblivion.

You panic, want to escape.

That is the danger, wanting to embrace any means of salvation - even suicide! It would be quick, you tell yourself, and the agony will end. I will be free of this. And yes, you would. I am not going to pretend otherwise, it is a choice, of facing the depression head on, being braver than you have ever been, or taking the easy route. I am going to be honest, and admit that suicide has been an option for me - more than that, I have tried to take my life. Your mind looks over the best way, the less painful way: wrists cut, hanging, overdose...

It is scary. But you don't feel there is any other solution. And thoughts of the people you leave behind, you cannot afford to invite those in, it would fill you with doubt, perhaps stop you from taking that yearned-for leap into the void.

I am writing this from my own experiences, so please don't expect answers if you are lost, too. For those you need to ask for help.

Never feel alone - there's support for anyone 24/7. The Samaritans.
Antidepressant medication is not easy in itself. There is no formula as to which tablets work best for each person, everyone is different and their minds are treated as such. What works for one individual might not necessarily work for you. So a change in medication after a test period could be a possibility.

It is true that depressive people tend to blame themselves when faced by negative events, and are unlikely to accept credit for positive outcomes. There is a lack of belief that they can succeed, repeatedly overcome by self-pity.

Depression can make you feel isolated and lonely; your desire to be with someone "special" is overwhelmed by your fear of other people, social situations terrify and force you to stay away. You don't want to engage, or even when you do something sparks off in your head, and you feel the urge to flee. Panic attacks are regular, scary and keep you from finding that outlet.

The following part of this article will be difficult to share, but it needs to be said. This will also be the most personal of all...

Whether or not you invite thoughts of a suicidal nature, there is always another way of decreasing the inner pain: self-harming. This is quite common among people with depression; it is a form of release, allowing the tensions and anger to seep away, just like the blood from a cut.

There are various ways of self-harming. Personally I have cut my arm, banged my head against hard surfaces... anything to escape. To a rational person this is all utter madness, possibly a form of attention-seeking? But self-harm can be the result of two factors: a call for help, or self-control. When everything around you is so out of control, taking something like this, it helps you to focus and feel like you are in charge of your life.

So what triggers self-harming? Anything, quite frankly. Even when you are trying, desperately trying to achieve the next step in recovery, a bad moment, a fatal encounter, will have the affect of absolute chaos. There is the spark in your head, anger or a feeling of hopelessness...

...So you cut...

Writing this article, from the heart, is not easy. Wish I could say that the self-harming is over. Sadly, that is not the case. My issues are ongoing. And yes, I still seek that self-control, from time to time, when things get too bad and there is just no other way to cope.

So what to do, and where to go, when you are in need of help? There are two ways in which you can seek support: your local general practitioner (GP), or the Samaritans. Both will have a friendly ear. Have my personal experiences with outside help been encouraging? I cannot lie, there have been difficult encounters for me, including a short stay at a psychiatric hospital. You didn't know? Of course not, this is something deep and personal. It is only now that I am willing to open up about it. So, are you likely to be placed into one of these if you receive help?

Not necessarily. Everyone's problems are different; I was placed in one for a particular reason, though this is something that I would rather not go through right now, in this article.

I am not here to give support, nor am I here to be judged. I am writing this to raise awareness. If you are out some place, and see a stranger banging his/her head against a wall, or door, shouting, crying, please try not to be too judgemental - your instinct is that they might be dangerous, I know. Perhaps they are. But we never truly know someone's story, do we?

I am one of those crazy people. Yes, it had gotten that bad for me once upon a time. Still could. You never truly know when something breaks you...

...heart, mind and soul.





Article author: Alwyn Ash




Saturday, October 8, 2011

Common sense needs to be employed at the Royal Mail - LifeView

Article author: Alwyn Ash


How can something so simple be difficult to implement?

Most of us have been the victims of stupidity at one time or another. However, this morning it was a surpise to find that a brand new parcel, quite clearly far too large, had been squeezed through the letterbox by a Royal Mail postman - now the items inside are damaged! This has happened to me twice now and, quite clearly, the Royal Mail needs to employ staff with more than a little common sense to deliver its parcels and letters.

Two books, both hardback, don't look anywhere as nice now that the dust-covers are ripped and the spines bent at the top - that's £38 of my money! To add insult to injury, I was at home when this incident occurred so there really was no need for the postman to behave in such a thoughtless manner - a simple knock on the door would have been adequate.

And then there is the delivery of letters to an incorrect address: every door in our street is quite clearly marked with brass numbers, even the most long-sighted individual should be able to make them out. And yet, only a few weeks back, neighbours were complaining of mail being delivered to the wrong doors. Yes, mine included!

If this kind of shoddy behaviour continues, the Royal Mail is likely to damage its reputation even further. If it happens here, it is bound to be taking place elsewhere? Perhaps staff training is in order? Let us hope that the Royal Mail employs people with common sense in future, because this kind of negligence is not acceptable!